These past two weeks have been kind of crazy. I've been feeling like a certain person whom I love dearly has a low view of my capabilities and that she has been critical of what I say and do; nothing is good enough for her.
Tonight it occurred to me that maybe I just have an inflated view of myself, and her corrections have bothered me because I don't think I'm that bad. Oh, the flesh is so vain and self-deceiving!
I discovered a song tonight that I really like; it's not the sort I'm usually into. It's called "He Knows My Name", by Francesca Battistelli. Here is the chorus of the song:
"True to who You are,
You saw my heart
something out of nothing.
I don't need my name in lights;
I'm famous in my Father's eyes.
He knows my name.
I'm not living for applause;
I'm already so
It's all His stage,
He knows my name."
In the first stanza, I love how it points to God's character. He is the one who takes nothing (me) and makes something that can bring Him glory. I can't change or better myself; only He can.
The second stanza makes me realize that I don't need to be thought highly of, because in reality, I CAN'T do anything by myself. My capabilities really aren't that great; my friend is actually overestimating them. I should not be injured by her expectations of me. I should not strive to be praised by her, or anyone else. He knows my name, and that should be enough honor for me.